Kaito @kai@ajin.la

It's twinks all the way down.

In 5-10 years, my employer will likely retire.

I think my biggest source of anxiety is my lack of marketable skills - fear of poverty.

But if I set aside my art to develop marketable skills, the fear of poverty is replaced by a fear of meaninglessness.

If I'm going to keep focusing on art, I need to come to terms with the fact that this jeopardizes my quality of life.

Hiring a band to record my songs will speed up the process greatly. Then I can work on marketable skills.

I'm trying to find a stable routine instead being manic and then burning out. But I'm not quite sure what the intervals should be. I feel like this should be well established science 😅

Do I "let" myself work on music and go to the gym and eat well on my off days? Or do I "make" myself read at the cafe and eat junk food so that I'm ready to get back at it during the week?

I'm trying to figure out how much I should "enforce" down time on my days off.

I didn't realize "te quiero bro" was a valid expression. I guess English is still cool.

Wow! God's Own Country (Francis Lee)

I'm so confused. I really thought I would be so happy to have the night off after going to the gym four nights in a row. Like, "woo, party time!"

I cooked some vegetables and they were OK.

But I have this feeling like, "now what?"

I'm trying to enjoy my night off, but I'm not really enjoying it. I guess when I'm not busy is when I realize I feel anxious.

I could just go to the gym like normal…

Comment on HN about climbing Mt. Fuji:

https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=20003672

still trying to talk myself out of an expensive microphone that I will use maybe three times. lol.

Google is still updating Sites. They must use it internally.

"We like to think of science as being balanced, accurate, and devoid of prejudice. Yet according to Angela Saini, racism is insidiously worming its way into research."

https://www.sciencefocus.com/science/race-science-angela-saini-on-the-creeping-resurgence-of-racism-in-science/